Nothing a couple thousand calories can’t solve!!

I’m going on day 12 of being without a home in the city of love.

My time of homelessness was about to come to an end; I was about to get my keys to my Parisian apartment. The dream apartment, located in a cute neighborhood with adorable French doors and a beautiful view!

For the past week in anticipation of moving in, I had begun reading the IKEA catalogue religiously and circled the dishes and décor that I would soon adorn my adorable apartment with!!!

I WAS FEELING ALIVE AND READY TO CONCUR!!!

And then…

Things took a dramatic turn for the worse.

I found myself SOBBING (not crying, but HEAVING) on the street, alone, in the heart of the “Parisian ghetto”.

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There had been a mistake, and my apartment had been reserved for someone ELSE!

The fact that I have already signed a lease, and paid a deposit was of no concern to my landlord!!!

Everyone told me exchange would be a great eye opening opportunity for me to find out who I really am – well I can’t stop crying in the middle of a Parisian Café – HAVE I FOUND MYSELF??–

I’m alone and upset and I don’t care who knows it!!!!!! – IS THIS MY AUTHENTIC SELF?????

Is public crying even a culture norm in this country???!?!?!?!?

I’ve devoured a “Mille Feuille” THE French pastry whose name directly translates to 1000 calories (I used the flakey crumbs to wipe my tears)

I feel lethargic but in the wise words of Lady Antebellum – I’d rather hurt, than feeling nothing at all!!!!!

They all warned me that going on exchange really pushes you to the limit… WELL it’s been 12 days, 15 croissants, and 2 jars of Nutella and all I can say is I’m homeless and my jeans are cutting off my circulation – HAVE I REACHED MY LIMIT?!?!?!

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